Crazy as it seems but I think im waiting for the wrong person for years. I never thought I would allow myself to be in this kind of situation. I'm not really sure if it's just the situation or me? This just doesn't feel good. There's nothing there to hold on to.
I just hate that im still creating an illusion on what we're supposed to be right now. This is not fair. I don't know what the hell am I still waiting for.
On a lighter side, I am trying to distract myself from thinking about the "situation". I am letting myself be distracted by this boy (a legit Chinese boy). YES, flirting is the best possible solution for my current dilemma in life. He's not an imported love affair, or a fantasy he just makes me happy.
Looking forward to seeing him this April.
Somewhere between heartaches and waiting comes another chance
to be found by someone who can show you that you don’t deserve to be just an option but a choice.